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  • Introductions

    10 months ago

    Austin.Harper PotatoHound

    Hey everyone! I know some of you may know me already, but I figure it's about time I officially introduce myself (plus I want to start using the site more.)


    My name is Austin and I'm a producer for ScrewAttack, working specifically on the shows DBX, DEATH BATTLE Cast, and DEATH BATTLE. I've been with SA for about 4 years now, previously coming from restaurant management, and I've got a passion for music, science, and cooking.


    To be honest, I'm not totally sure what kind of posts you can expect to see from me in the future, but if you have any questions or topics you'd like to hear from me on, let me know in thread!

  • Fly Eagles Fly!

    10 months ago

    nicolew Events Specialist

    My heart is content!! The Philadelphia Eagles won Super Bowl LII! So proud of this team and what they accomplished this year. Shout out to Alshon Jeffery, my fellow Gamecock. I can't stop watching all of the replay videos and interviews.  This really doesn't feel real yet.  I wish I could be up there tomorrow for the parade and to celebrate with my family! E-A-G-L-E-S EAGLES!!

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    10 months ago

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  • Monster Hunter: World

    10 months ago

    patrickmatthewz RTX Events Coordinator

    It is dope. I hated it at first. Now I am all in. It is so fun. I want to leave work and play it. Thank you.

  • Blue Apron Ad - Editor Notes

    10 months ago

    JoshuaKazemi @joshuakazemi

    Those of you who tuned in to the season premiere of DEATH BATTLE on YouTube today might have noticed a new kind of Blue Apron ad. That little gem was directed by Noel Wiggins of ScrewAttack. It was edited by me and shot by the two of us. It stars the incomparable Austin Harper of ScrewAttack, Rooster Teeth's Cockbite of the Year 2017. It was a labor of love and something we all have being working towards in our careers for years. We really appreciate this award and have a lot of people to thank; Chad James, Sean Hinz, Ben Singer and everyone else over at ScrewAttack who believed in this passion project. We also want to thank everyone here at Rooster Teeth and of course, everyone over at Blue Apron, a better way to cook. Oh, they're playing the dubstep and that's my time. Thank you all! You like it, you really like it! 


    Watch the Video: YT

  • "I'll see what I can do"

    10 months ago

    andrekrat Live Action VFX/Motion

    Hi there! I guess I should introduce myself properly, my name is André Ouellette and I'm the VFX and Motion Graphics Designer for the Live Action department.


    I've been with RT for almost two years now, and I have had the pleasure of working on, at least in some capacity, almost everything that the Live Action department releases. It's a lot of ridiculous, stupid, awesome fun and every week is totally different.


    One thing I wanted to talk about is a mantra that I've really learned to embrace while working on Blood Fest these past few months. (Also something I'm very excited to talk more about soon). That mantra is "I'll see what I can do."


    It can be tempting, particularly when you're thrown a curve-ball of a shot request, to say "I can't do that" or "We don't have the time". But more often than not I find that once you sit down and unpack what needs to be done you'll be surprised at the kinds of solutions you come up with. VFX and Design are about problem-solving more than anything else. Whatever cheats and shortcuts you can get away with to make a shot work are fair game, as long as it looks good nobody cares how you got there.


    When you say "I'll see what I can do" you're refusing to admit defeat from the onset, you're immediately opening your mind to weird solutions and quite often those weird solutions will get you damn close, if not all the way there. And the best part is that you can file away that knowledge and use it in the future. The more you say "I'll see what I can do", the more you build a library of dumb tricks and cheats that you can rely on for the next shot.


    It's important to be realistic and honest in what you think you can accomplish, but it never hurts to dive into things and see what you get. I can't count the number of times I initially told myself that something was too dumb to work, or would look too fake, and found that I was totally wrong. My favorite moments of the work day are when I laugh at how wrong I am about impossible shots.

  • What if we let Rebecca announce RTX London? (TM)

    10 months ago

    sophieturcotte Public Relations Manager

    The universe is weird. There's a car in space now. But I think what I mean to say is there's energy that's just traveling around all the time and connecting us all. DEEP. How else could you explain the idea of letting Rebecca announce RTX London just planting itself into my brain? I don't really know how it all happened, but share in some love and joy in this crazy world for a minute (and watch the vid).



  • Dungeons & Dragon's - Story Arc 2 Hook

    10 months ago

    adam Director of Technology

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  • Instant Pot for Lazy People: Salsa Chicken

    10 months ago

    emilyweeks RT Office Coordinator

    Time for our regularly scheduled programming of instant pot adventures! 

    Tonight's recipe is the easiest recipe I have made with my pot so far. Huge shout out to @Becca for leaving this in the comments on one of my previous journals.



    Salsa Chicken

    This recipe made me six 4oz servings of chicken. Perfect for meal prep! As soon as the chicken was done, I measured and portioned it out immediately for refrigerating.

    I love how versatile this is! You can make tacos, rice bowls, salads; whatever the hell you want, really. Because I'm going the low-carb route, I made something in between a salad and burrito bowl with my chicken.


    2 lbs boneless, skinless chicken breast (you could probably use thighs for extra flavor if you wanted, but I opted for a leaner protein)

    1 cup salsa of your choice


    - Throw the chicken in your pot and pour your salsa on top. Give it a quick stir to really coat the chicken.

    - Close the lid, make sure your valve is closed, and select the Poultry option. Let cook for the default amount of time (it's 15 mins on my pot) and let the pressure release naturally after the cooking cycle is complete. Alternatively, if you have an actual Instant Pot branded pot, you should have a Manual function. You can cook this chicken on Manual pressure setting for 7 minutes. (I have a Crock Pot Express Pot, which doesn't have an explicit Manual button, so I just went with the Poultry option on default time and pressure.)

    - Open your pot and use two forks to pull the chicken apart, give things another good stir to coat, and you're good to go!

    - Optional: Here is how I constructed my salad/bowl if you're interested. I started off with 1oz spring mix and spinach greens, 1/4 cup black beans, 4oz of the chicken, and 1/8 cup shredded Mexican cheese.



    Tonight I needed something quick(ish) and easy to cook, because I left work later than I usually do, and still had some things I needed to accomplish at home. I threw everything in the pot, squeezed in a yoga practice while it cooked, then ate, and portioned out the remaining meal prep with plenty of my evening left to get things done. Winner winner, chicken dinner.


    Do y'all have any quick and easy go-to recipes? I'd love to hear them (so that I can make them).  blush

  • RTX Austin & London Forums!

    10 months ago

    adam Director of Technology

    Created new forums for our RTX 2018 London & Austin. 


    Looking for a place to arrange hotel shares or community meet ups for #RTX2018?  Just made some new forums for ya.   heartbeat


    http://roosterteeth.com/forum/rtx-austin-2018


    http://roosterteeth.com/forum/rtx-london-2018


    XOXOX

  • Finally got a board for someone my size.

    10 months ago

    adam Director of Technology

    165 Wide, Libtech Skunk Ape.  


    This board is soooo much faster than rental boards.   I have to put a little more torque on turns but man this thing holds the snow so damn well.       heart heart


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  • If you applied to be a Guardian..

    10 months ago

    kriss Community Manager

    Please be sure to read up on all the updates from @SailorTweek here. The latest update is  http://roosterteeth.com/post/51649620 Understand that Mary will be posting updates when she herself has info to share. 


    For those who received their Guardian acceptance. A bit of advice if you are new to the Guardian family or if it's been a while and you could use a refresher, please read below. Also note, that I am writing this purely from my standpoint and experience. This is not reflective of the Head Guardians or RT (in case someone thinks I am speaking for them).  


    1) As in past years, teams will not be assigned until much later. There are literally hundreds upon hundreds of considerations that Mary and Chris have to take into account, so don't expect team assignments to be sent out any time soon. If you want a rough estimate on how big the team was last year, we ran RTX with over 500 Guardians. Imagine having to pair skillsets with team responsibilities for that amount of people. Give our Head Guardians time to figure things out. For now, congratulate yourself for making it onto the team, the Guardian team. 


    2) Follow instructions and direction. If you are sent correspondence, READ. EVERYTHING. I cannot stress this enough. One of the best ways to become an effective Guardian is to follow the instructions given to you. 


    3) Yes, you are a volunteer, but treat this responsibility as you would an actual job. The experience you gain working this show can actually apply to "IRL" roles, so take it seriously. Yes, we get to hang out with friends, and yes, we have a ton of fun, but please understand that this show cannot happen unless we all work together and you are willing to do your part. Being a Guardian is hard work; please don't take this role for granted.  


    Now this part is where mama bear me comes out. 


    3a) When you apply to be a Guardian, you are not guaranteed to be placed on your preferred teams. That is the reality of the application. Once team assignments come out, please don't complain about the team you are assigned to. It's completely disrespectful. Reiterating again, there is so much time and consideration put into team assignments, the Head Guardians do their damndest to accommodate everyone's requests, but they can't make everyone happy. Now, if you have a legit concern like, "I can't be a store Guardian because I have a back injury, so I would rather be in a role that's a bit stationary", please let Mary know. But if you receive your assignment and complain that you should have gotten a role over someone else because XYZ, that is not cool, and it's completely unprofessional. 


    3b) Just like you would with any job, if something comes up and you are unable to attend RTX, message Mary immediately. Don't wait until a few days before the show to say something (unless, of course, something horrible happens at that time). 


    4) I always encourage new Guardians to talk to veteran Guardians about what they can expect for their first RTX. Don't be afraid to ask questions whether it be directed at Mary, your team leads, or other Guardians. The more prepared you are, the more confident you can go into that weekend. 


    Special note: Do NOT message RT staff about Guardian related questions regardless if you have an existing relationship with them. Those go to Mary or your team leads. And if they cannot answer it, they will forward the inquiry accordingly. One of the most important things to understand early on is that there is a chain of command. That sounds entirely too military like, but the concept is valid. 


    4)  Veteran Guardians, I always encourage you to be welcoming, helpful, and above all else, humble. You have the experience, and you have the ability to help nurture you team. You've done RTX before, so you know the rules... so you should also know that you are not exempt from them. Be the example, the type of Guardian you wanted to look up to during your first year. Welcome your new teammates and guide them. Remember back to your first year and remember what you wanted to know or learn, how you felt, and use that to motivate you in helping your team build camaraderie. 


    I think this wall of text is sufficient for now. If the writing bug hits me again, I will post more. For now, welcome to my fellow Guardians. I look forward to working with you. 


  • An Open Letter and an Introduction

    10 months ago

    RTSamStarr Marketing Coordinator

    Dear Rooster Teeth Community,


    This past weekend, I had the immense honor of joining some wonderful people in the RTX Sydney live chat on our new video platform. I tuned into the stream mostly for some background noise as I made dinner, and to see how my coworkers were doing in The Land Down Under. Until this weekend, I had only browsed through the live chat once or twice, but never fully participated.


    I should preface this by saying that I am still relatively new to the RT community - my first true experience and introduction to Rooster Teeth was RTX Austin 2017. One of my old coworkers had left my previous job to work for RT, and after asking her about RTX, I got a weekend pass to see what it was all about. 


    I had never been to a con before, nor was I familiar with any of RT's content.


    BOY WAS I IN FOR A RIDE!


    I went to panels, made friends in lines, got some awesome swag, and danced the night away at the VIP party. I was so impressed by how welcome I felt in a sea of people united by a common cause of which I was relatively unfamiliar before that weekend. I felt at home from the moment I walked through the door, and was so sad to leave on the final day.


    So when I started working at RT last fall, I had a sense of how great this community was, and I was 100% on board with it.


    But this weekend - it was different.


    After I finished up with dinner, I jumped into the chat to see what was going on. The stream was between sessions, but people were still actively chatting. What I thought would be a simple hello turned into two days of amazing interactions with people from all over the world.


    I saw RT members jump in and out of chat who already knew each other and I saw new groups of people come together and make new friends. I saw people give out endless advice and help each other, build each other up, and bring nothing but positivity to each other. And even in the midst of routine stream errors and new site mishaps, I didn't witness a single person get upset by the chaos, but rather saw people giving constructive feedback and many thanks to our engineering team for their hard work to put together something amazing for all of us to use. 


    Just because I work for this amazing company, doesn't automatically make me an authority on our content or a star in the gaming world. But in this community, I feel accepted and loved regardless of how many shows I've seen or how good I am at the games I play. Y'all accept me, and every one of our community members no questions asked. You make this world a positively beautiful place to be.


    We're all united by our shared love of everything Rooster Teeth, and I want to thank all of you for welcoming me with open arms into this crazy community.


    Each one of you is a part of the reason we all find a little bit of home in Rooster Teeth, and for that, I am forever grateful.


    <3 Sam

  • A "Yes, And..." Approach to Collaboration and Editing

    10 months ago

    dan_dan Editor | BLOOD FEST

    What's up, RT fam? Have you heard about the concept of "Yes, And.."?

    You improv comedy fans might already be familiar with this, but for those who aren't, "yes, and..." is the idea that when you interact with someone you accept what they say without judgement (yes), and then expand on it (and...). This framework moves things forward in a way that's highly collaborative and arrives at some very interesting results.

    The cool thing is that this can be applied beyond improv comedy. When I got my head around this, it changed the way I approached edit sessions. By accepting someone's premise or note, and moving things forward I help them (or myself) expand on that line of thinking. More often than not we arrive at some amazing solutions to complex problems. Once you've arrived at a solution, then you can make up your mind on if it works better than the alternative or not. The best idea should always win. 

    In editorial (and in life too...I guess), there are essentially limitless possibilities. Being open to what could be a better possibility is going to help make your work better, make you a better person to work with, and make things more fun. At least that's the case with me. Have you experienced that too?

    - Dan 

     

  • RTX London - Save the Date

    10 months ago

    patrickmatthewz RTX Events Coordinator

    You may be wondering if we were thinking about doing another RTX London. Well stop it! We are!! 


    We will have more information for you soon, but as of now we just want you to save that date!


    RTX London 2018

    ExCeL London

    September 15th-16th, 2018


    Save it! It is going to be rad. 


    See you soon,


    -P


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  • Who I Am

    10 months ago

    toddwo32 Creative Producer

    Hey! I pop up in Rooster Teeth videos here and there but I haven't properly and officially introduced myself to the community here. And since this is the Year of Community at RT, there's no time like the present. 


    My name is Todd Womack, and I've been working in entertainment for about two decades. Most recently, I spent five years as a writer/performer/director at Barely Political, one of the early big YouTube channels, now called The Key of Awesome. My job there was to make viral videos. In that time, we made hundreds of fake commercialssketches and music videos, and I'm proud to say that I had a major part in bringing in over 2 billion views there. Around a hundred million of those views feature me playing the performer Pitbull in parodies of his "songs." While I had fun doing that character, I never wanted to be known as a Pitbull impersonator, so don't bring it up. But that's what Josh Flanagan calls me. 


    One of my favorite things I made there was a series of fake commercials for a fictitious product called New Zealand Style Deck Sealant. That series of 3 videos is up to about 10 million views total. It's a type of comedy I like to call Dumbclever, in that it's a dumb concept that's been executed well. And I just learned that every Aussie knows this video, and I have like a million free drinks waiting for me there. If you're ever at RT headquarters I still keep the original can of Deck Sealant on my desk. 


    One fact I think is interesting about that whole experience is that our YouTube channel was owned by a company called Next New Networks, that in 2011 was bought by YouTube, which is of course a subsidiary of Google. So we were doing all these comedy videos while being guinea pigs for YouTube itself, testing out new elements, making corporate videos, and feasting on the free gourmet food there. So my job before this one was actually at Google. My parents were finally okay with me going into comedy. At some point Google released Barely into the wild and it was time for me to leave New York, where I had lived for 11 years. I moved back to my college town of Austin, got married, and started working at Rooster Teeth as a producer in the broadcast department after working on a TV show with Joel Heyman and Brandon Farmahini made by RT for Verzon's Go90 as a writer/producer. 


    Before that I spent about 12 years as a standup and sketch comedian in New York and L.A., traveling the U.S.A. and the U.K. making jokes. I still do some standup and weird character pieces around Austin, and at the moment I'm working on some new shows here at Rooster Teeth. You can see me every once in a while on the RT Podcast and On The Spot. Drop me a line if you want I'm a friendly dude :)  

  • Solo's Movie

    10 months ago

    Steffie AH Social

    Excited but cautious. I'm legit mostly interested in this movie cause of Lando. He's such an interesting character and we get so little of him. His characterization in Star Wars: Rebels sealed him as one of my favorites.


    Also, I will probably riot if they make Han this suave, ladies-man. Han is a stubborn man-child who is not great under pressure.  

  • Home Tour

    10 months ago

    ezracooperst President

    Here is my home screen. What’s yours look like? 


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    Notes:

    • Yes, I have 33k unread emails
    • Yes, my phone is on 10% battery life...it's an iPhone 6...don't even get me started 
    • RT app is in a folder with all my media apps. The folder includes YouTube, HBO, Netflix, DIRECTV Now, VRV, Crunchy Roll and Amazon Prime Video.




  • A Quick Hello from Rooster Teeth Game Publishing

    10 months ago

    DeddMan Head of Game Publishing

    Howdy folks –


    Like most of you, I’ve been playing games all my life.  For me it started with PONG and pumping quarter after quarter into early arcade games like Night Driver, Breakout, and Space Wars.  I went broke almost as quickly as I was hooked.  Then came the first home systems in the 80’s – Atari, Intellivision, ColecoVision – but the arcade was still an almost daily destination with Pac-Man, Defender, Gauntlet, Donkey Kong, and my personal favorite, Robotron, continually taking my daily lunch money.  Then in 1985, Nintendo broke the arcades with the debut of the NES.  Finally, arcade quality games in the home – totally rad!  Plus, we were introduced to new types of games that were story driven like The Legend of Zelda and Final Fantasy.  It was a great time to be a gamer and I remember sitting on the floor after finally defeating Ganon and thinking that it couldn’t get any better.  Of course, I could’ve never predicted what the 90’s had in store – the beginning of the console wars between Nintendo, SEGA, and Sony – it was the best of times!  Surely, *this* was the Golden Age of video games.


    But then in 1996 my life was forever changed after I installed Quake on my Pentium 133 personal computer.  Quake was the first “fantasy fulfillment” game I’d ever played.  And I’ll always remember that first adrenaline rush of being a Space Marine running around a true 3D world and killing aliens.  It was like nothing I’d ever experienced…and I wanted more.


    Soon after I was pulled into the gaming industry when Gathering of Developers formed in the late 90’s where we launched games like Serious Sam and Max Payne.  And just prior to Rooster Teeth, I spent about a dozen years at Gearbox Software as the biz guy helping build franchises and adding my voice to games whenever needed.  In fact, it’s likely that most of you know me as the voice of Claptrap, the annoying little robot sidekick in Borderlands.  Please accept my most sincere apology.


    So it’s a great privilege to introduce myself to you as the Head of Publishing at Rooster Teeth Games.  And it’s an even bigger honor to be welcomed into the Rooster Teeth family and to have a platform to present to you some of the freshest, most fun, kick-ass indie games around.  Between you and me, it feels like the last 20 years has been leading up to this very moment and I hope you’ll join me for the ride.


    Just one dude honkin’...


    David Eddings

    Head of Publishing

    Rooster Teeth Games

  • Theater Mode Update

    10 months ago

    Stab RT Broadcast Producer

    Today we announced Theater Mode's new release date of February 16th. With everything going on, this date worked better for the release pattern of films as well as how the show interacts with everything that our Programming Department is planning for Q1 of this year.

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    We've been working a lot the past three weeks with Funhaus on their episodes: I watched the rough cut of the first episode. If you enjoy Funhuas, you'll love their episodes. Justin Young has been building the Funhaus intro, which looks absolutely fantastic. Peyton McLeod has been editing the 3rd and 4th episode of the AH season.

    I've begun looking at new films now that our supply is beginning to run low. We've had some really good Gravitas films used in Funhaus and Achievement Hunter Theater Mode lately as well as some good old Troma films in the mix. I'm also working on a few pitches for the show that I'd like to test soon. More on that later...

    I'd like to end the update with a thank you to the audience. I know for some of you this is the show that made you sign up for FIRST and for some this is even your favorite show. So thank you for the wait. I look at the comments for Theater Mode very frequently, both on here and on social media sites. I understand that you as an audience want more AH, not to have big breaks, and more diverse movies- to name a few. We got a lot in the works for the future, so sit tight. 

    -Later

  • Jelly

    10 months ago

    ezracooperst President

    I knew I was going to feel this way when I finally decided not to go. We just moved to Austin and I had to pass and put my real family over my work family...or as my wife puts it the NO BRAINER CALL. Yes I have 10 month old twins and we just moved. Yes I would miss them. But, now as I see the social posts starting to flow from Sydney the jealousy is setting in. I'll want to look many times this weekend. I'll want to read the updates on Reddit. I'll hope that it's going well and everyone is having fun, but It will also sting a bit. 


    With that said, I hope everyone has the best time and stays safe. 


    I'm sure you can all feel me on this...

  • I Need to Post More On The RT Site

    10 months ago

    Schwartzanicker Broadcast Nick

    ...so I'll start with this! I found some old stuff laying around my old PC that I'm hoping to post soon. I think you'll like some of the surprises!


    In the meantime, give me a follow on the Twits: https://twitter.com/Schwartzanicker

    Check out my Twitch channel: https://www.twitch.tv/schwartzanicker

    The Broadcast Boys channel: https://www.twitch.tv/broadcastboys

    And our goofy little YouTube channel: http://bit.ly/CHTL_YouTube

  • Inspiration Behind Cow Chop January Photo Shoot

    10 months ago

    wesellis Staff Photographer

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    Another week, another hilarious shoot with members of the Let's Play family. I love how ridiculous and funny each group is in their own way. Recently we had Cow Chop in town and I was excited to shoot with them and get them in their newest merch.


    If you haven't seen already, their new merch has a very Jackass vibe to it.  Very fitting for the kind of content they put out.



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    I totally dig this design approach for them. I especially love the design of the cow skull and how realistic it looks. Shout out to our design team who has been working long hours to bring some super solid merch to all of the Let's Play family.



    As for the actual shoot, this is one of those rare occasions where I was given a block of time with total creative control. If you follow my recent work then you might have noticed that I'm currently inspired by the quirkiness of Tyler, the Creator's 2017 'Flower Boy' style. In fact, the way this interview shoot is stylized really inspired the way I colored my shoot with Cow Chop.


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    I had a vision of how I wanted to decorate the set and I enlisted the help of the RT Art Department to help me achieve it.  I asked them to "imagine you're at your grandma's house, but your grandma is a huge Rooster Teeth fan." Along with @AshlynF and @travise77, we listed out and picked some of the pieces for the set, including a cow print loveseat from RTX, a quilted blanket and some creepy porcelain figurines. The backdrop is one of the wood paneled walls in Stage 2 where Master & Apprentice was shot.


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    Rooster Teeth's Consumer Products Marketing Manager Nathan Isherwood (@coolnathan) aka the best boi


    Getting cleared artwork to put on the wall was an issue we encountered while decorating the set.  We have some awesome paintings on hand, but unfortunately they aren't our work so we can't include them in merch photos. I quickly (and roughly) printed off some photos I've taken that I thought were appropriate, like the portrait of Burnie on his bus, a random cow from my trip to Hawaii in 2016, and this ridiculous photo of Elyse from Funhaus.


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    Finally we got everything set up and ready to go.  Now we just had to wait for the Cow Chop boys to land in Texas and show up at the studio.  Once they arrived, and after I assured the Art Department that they wouldn't burn down Stage 2, we got to work.  Here are a handful of my favorites from the shoot. Be sure to shop their new merch here!


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  • Three Years

    10 months ago

    Chelsea RT Community Manager

    I've spent all day in a post-surgery drug haze trying to grasp that it's been three years since I had to guess whether or not I was going to wake Monty up by loudly unloading the dishes in Stage 5. 


    We never got to know each other personally - but I had a lucky position where I was the front office coordinator and for some reason that involved a lot of Monty requests, ha.


    Coffee, office supplies, sleeping at odd hours od the day, and more. There's one that I especially like to remember, and to this day it still makes me smile and giggle. 


    I worked in the Bungalow, separate from Stage 5 and at the time we had this super fancy coffee maker called a Nespresso. I thought the coffee tasted like warm tar but for some reason Monty was absolutely enamored with it. One day he came up to me and asked if he could have special access into the Bungalow after hours. When I asked why (you needed a really good reason to have after hour access) he muttered something.


    I asked again, and got another smattering of syllables. Finally, I told him if he didn't have a good reason I couldn't give him access. He just sighed supper big at me and finally said, "I like the coffee here more than Stage 5."


    Still makes me smile remembering that. Monty was a treasure to so many of us and I feel absolutely gifted that I was able to have a few memories with him to call my own. 


    It hasn't gotten easier, and every February 1st I hope I wake up and it's been the most realistic dream I've ever experienced. But that hasn't happened yet. So, each February 1st I make myself a cup of coffee and hope he's drinking that godawful Nespresso somewhere beautiful. ❤️



  • An Unnerving Dream

    10 months ago

    emilyweeks RT Office Coordinator

    This journal is going to be darker than my normal posts, so to be on the safe side, I'm going to state that there are some possible triggers below. Much anxiety. (For me, at least.)

    So uh.. yeah. Basically I had this weird dream last week that I just can't forget about, so I'm going to write about it while I continue to try and figure it out...



    Last week, I had a dream that I was dying.

    I don't remember why exactly, but I was living my last 24 hours on this Earth. I was at my parents' home, and my family knew about this, because I had told them. However, for whatever reason, they all had to continue with their normal routines that day. So I was at their home.. alone. Waiting and anxious. The whole dream I was frightened and dreading my death, but I finally summoned some courage, laid down in bed, closed my eyes, and was bracing myself for the inevitable.

    So.. you know that feeling when you let out one last sigh before falling asleep? I was right at that point. I was ready to get this scary thing over with. I inhaled, then let out a last cleansing breath, expecting to drift into darkness. But after that exhale, there was another inhale. And an inhale. My breathing continued.

    With each breath after that, I grew frustrated that this wouldn't just end. Don't get me wrong, I was still scared shitless, but I also just wanted to get this thing over with. If this was going to happen, i didn't want to drag it out any longer.

    I finally opened my eyes, feeling defeated. I got up and decided to continue on with the rest of that day (this was all happening in the middle of the afternoon for some reason). I ran into some of my family who were very surprised to see me up and.. well.. alive. It was exhausting having to explain to everyone what happened and how I wasn't sure why it happened. That was supposed to be the end. I knew for sure my time was supposed to be up right then, at the moment that I would have normally drifted to sleep.


    But now I was awake again. I wasn't supposed to be awake again. I was so anxious and upset because now I had to wait for the real moment to come. I was as prepared as I could have been when I laid in that bed, but now I had to continue on without knowing when or where the end would surprise me...




    ...and then I was abruptly woken up IRL by my foster puppy. She was jumping in my face because she needed to go potty.

    Seriously... wtf was that dream?