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    • Black Sabbath

      1 day ago

      Tropes I Am What I Am

      So this video was put up this week. The last of the last, the end of The End. Paranoid, played one final time at the final show of the final tour of the progenitors of heavy metal, Black Sabbath. 


      I saw them on that tour, in Mansfield, MA. Outside, at the xfinity center. I had seats but my friend and I chose to stay on the lawn instead, where I met up with someone who I had seen play before in a much smaller place and a friend of his. It felt like how I always imagined the 70s, everyone good-naturedly talking, sharing their beer and weed freely. There was a mosh pit during Paranoid, just a series of push-pits up on the lawn because everyone was so excited that we were among the last people to see these living legends play live. 


      On the way back it took us an hour to get out of the parking lot. Someone said our car looked a little low, but I was so full of cannabis and alcohol so I fell asleep until I was shaken awake. We were on the side of the highway in a breakdown lane with a shredded tire and a flat spare. So we called AAA and I fell asleep again on the grass beside the highway until the tow truck came and dropped me off a block before my house before taking my friend and his car the rest of the way. 


      It was a magnificent time, one of the best nights of my life. I went the day I got hired at the job I finish one week from this moment. 


      Everything is endings and the closing of chapters. 

    • Everything Is Always in Flux

      1 week ago

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      So yesterday I received a call saying that I was good to go at a new job, and last night I gave my notice at my current one. In two weeks I'll stop there, then I have a week to myself to chill, relax, recover and begin to feel something like a human again. Which means, as always, all my plans have changed.


      So, let's go over the state of how things look. My current/almost former job paid very little. Even with the overtime I barely made enough to make ends meet and, since I was spending maybe a single waking hour out of work to begin with, a month or two ago I made the decision to temporarily move back in with the family, where I currently am. 


      Depending on what I'm doing during a given hour my payscale will vary from my current amount per hour to up to three times as much, and the ideal (both for me and for the new company) is that I do the latter. I'll be starting off part-time and build my way up to full-time, at which point my payments across the board will go up per hour. 


      This all works out for me pretty well. Since I'm with the family I don't need to worry too much as I build up my client base, and since even when I've built that base the goal is 30-40 hours per week I'll have enough time to financially justify moving back out. I'll then move to somewhere ideally between my new workplace (Watertown, MA) and the practice space for my new band (Charlestown, MA), which I hope to name and get off the ground as soon as possible. 


      The only downside is that this delays my return to Texas. Initially my goal was to get a job down there at one of several gyms and find a new place, but this opportunity knocked and will hopefully allow me to save up some money to make that move when the time comes. 


      All in all, I'm looking forward to my little self-made vacation at the end of my two weeks most of all. It'll be a good time to reflect and catch up on living a life that is more than just working.  Not sure if I want to maybe go somewhere or do something, but I have plenty of time to figure it out. All in all, my luck has turned again.

    • Need Reason

      2 weeks ago

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      So I posted most of this on Facebook already but since I kinda hate Facebook I figured I'd post it here where people are nice (and kinda used to me dealing with my issues in the corner).


      So since November I've basically become a lite nihilist (I wonder what could have happened). The thing is, maybe it's my upbringing and conditioning but I really don't want to be nihilistic. It's a pretty unrewarding worldview. When I'm really in a bad mood I tend to wallow in it. 


      But even when I'm not in those moods I have trouble coming up with a conscious reason that nihilism is not correct, and the way my brain works is that facts are facts. So if I can't find something in the world that says to my mind that it's wrong, then like it or not it's right. 


      Thoughts? I tend to face these things by reasoning them away like I did my fear of lightning and brain-eating parasites so if I have some reasoned thought process for "nihilism is not correct" it might help me. I don't think that way because I want to (I actually very much want NOT to be a nihilist), I think that way because nothing has been able to convince me otherwise for months.


      So hit me with your best shot: What do you have, what does your mind hold on to, in order to tell yourself that there is some kind of meaning or point to anything? Do you think about this at all, even? If you do think that there's no point or purpose to anything and we're all just a bunch of unimportant mites on an unimportant mite in an indifferent immensity of a purposeless universe then how do you deal with that, psychologically?


      I should note I'm not necessarily talking about religion or lack thereof. I'm not certain if there is or isn't a divine entity or several or none, but if there is I would also like to point out they seem like they're probably evil with the state of things. I don't need faith in a God, I want to be able to convince myself to have faith in fucking *anything* again. 

    • All the things

      1 month ago

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      ... Hi.


      So let's see, where do I start. You know how I keep saying "things ought to calm down next week, though?"


      Yeah they still aren't doing that. My life is constant and perpetual chaos. So I'm really just re-contextualizing stuff and trying to make sense of it all. So I'm going to try and catch everyone up since it's been a few weeks and this is also the place I go for vulnerable human shit. 


      First off, the fitness thing. Yes, it's still on-track. I've gained back up to 180 but my bodyfat is way lower than last time I was this heavy, so things are going exactly the way I wanted them to. It's just that since this is a slower burn than my two-month shred before RTX. I'll still check in with it at milestones, but I'll try to think of something else to post about on a weekly basis.


      Speaking of weekly, I'm still working six days a week. It's a bit rough, to be honest. I only get one day to decompress and recover each week and it's not always enough. Managing a small business is hard work, especially if management is very customer-facing and you're a super introvert. It's actually why I'm so behind on all the shows I like since not only do I work those six days but I leave my place at about 8AM and get home typically at 8 or 9PM still. 


      My sleep isn't great. I'm sleeping a decent amount but between stress and timing (like you saw above, I can't really decompress and do stuff if I want to get eight hours AND be at work on time) I'm not getting deep enough sleep to mentally restore myself so I'm running on fumes pretty much constantly. There's probably tricks about this, I just need to figure my shit out.


      Speaking of figuring shit out, I'm very torn right now. I have a few things keeping me in Boston right now, obligations I refuse to shirk because I refuse to be that person ever again, but what I want more than anything is to move back to Austin permanently. I'll have to think hard on that one, but I've had a few too many occasions where I just leave when shit gets hard so I want to make sure that this time I face my problems head-on and face my own destructive tendencies, hopefully coming out of it as a stronger, better person.


      Speaking of being stronger, it takes admitting you have a problem to fix it, and there's solid proof of that in my life now. As I've mentioned on other social media, while I don't think I have out-and-out Depression I do get very effected by the seasons and Boston is changing to Fall fast. This can and had led to severe depressive episodes that range in severity from general malaise to suicidal thoughts, and the state of the world hasn't helped. You know what has helped? Admitting that to friends so they can try to help me through it. And my friends have helped, immensely. I haven't managed to go through what we determined completely yet, but I'm trying.


      The main thing we figured out is I need to go "back to what makes me happy." And one of those big ones is writing. Between moving back to Boston, getting my current job, that job exploding and all that mayhem writing sort of fell off and it was a huge part of my identity and a highlight of my day. So the goal in the near future - as soon as possible, actually - is to write a page of something, ideally fiction but this works too, before going on Facebook or Twitter for the day. In theory, this is a good plan. In practice, I sometimes have downtime at work where I check the stuff. I'm trying to get used to writing on a phone but that's a bit difficult. Still working on it. 


      One piece of advice my friends gave me that kind of speaks to a fundamental break in my way of viewing the world and theirs was that they suggested I get on Tinder. For anyone else, their logic would be 100% sound - get out, meet more people who aren't part of my usual circle, maybe have some nice dates too. The thing is, my problem is A: I'm out too much and don't have enough time to decompress as-is, B: My usual circle is already big enough, maybe a little too big and C: I actively want NOT to date. It's just another social responsibility to me, to be honest, and honestly a relationship sounds horrifying to me - coming home to someone instead of silence? No thanks. So as much as I appreciated that advice, that's one I'm gonna have to pass. 


      This last one is the hardest to talk about if only because it's the one I understand the least, and that's the aspect of Spirituality in my life. I've had some peaks and valleys in terms of my religious worldview, from full-bore Catholic to recently clawing my way out of full Nihilism, but either way the world at large has definitely tainted religion for me. Between Christianity in America (albeit an abberant form of it) being a constant stream of hate and my... less than ideal leaving of Zen years ago, both west and east aren't for me. But there is a difference between religion and spirituality - whether you believe in a soul or a continuation after death or some kind of God, you can be a spiritual person. Hell, some of the least spiritual people in the world are the most vocally religious. That may be the trick for me, I think I conflated the two too much and, to my detriment, pushed both aspects away and let my spirit weaken and wane even when I was strengthening my body and mind. Today I read an article from the Harvard Medical Journal that said actual research has been done that suggests meditation has benefits not only for anxiety but for people with anxiety disorders, and that's why I'm thinking about this. I am going to get back into meditation, even if my relationship with Zen the religion ended in calamity meditation as a mental and spiritual practice does not HAVE to be conflated with it. Just like believing in Jesus doesn't HAVE to be conflated with a bible-thumping homophobe. Sure, it's related. And we have to face that it's related just like we have to face our flaws as individual humans. But it doesn't have to be what defines it. 


      I don't know what I believe. I don't know if there's a God or not, or if there is whether He/She/They are on our side - or whether we, ourselves are the gods after all. But I can strengthen my spirit to face the truth, whatever that may be. 


      Someday I want to do a dedicated post on spirituality and religion and my full, uncensored history with it (some of you have heard it in person but it doesn't exist in any public written space), but that'll have to do for now.


      Okay guys, I'm tuckered out. But it feels good to say all this, have it in the open and get my thoughts in order. Peace out. 

    • Brodin 2017 - Week 1

      2 months ago

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      So this one's a bit late, but so far so good. Unfortunately I've overcooked my chicken so I'd enjoy myself as much eating a boot. But I've been training hard and I already feel appreciably stronger, but I'm sure at least some of that is psychological.


      This week will hopefully be the last with a hellish schedule, so my sleep will be more restorative. But this is still just the ramp-up.  

    • Brodin 2017 - The Start of the Journey

      2 months ago

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      Yo!


      So I've got my starting weight, but my body comp machine is on the fritz. That's all fine, but for the moment the weight is more important.


      Starting at 170, still pretty lean. So far this week I've done three strength workouts with cardio sessions on my off days to counter my body's tendency to grab and store fat. The cardio will be boxing again when my tattoo is done healing (the wrist of my wraps and gloves rest right on it, ouch!) and the weight training is a long, full-body hypertrophy style. 


      My only worry is that my stress levels are a bit high because of various work and life circumstances, but working out is also helping with that. This week at least two days I'm going to work before dawn and leaving at or after sunset, so it'll be rough but nothing I can't handle!

    • What Do I Call This - Fitness Gubs

      2 months ago

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      Yo!


      So it's been a rough month since RTX. Both work bathrooms exploded, I'm homesick as fuck, been working 12 hours or more most days, all that. Haven't had a real "day off" day off until today, but I've still been keeping up on my workouts. So I figured since I love fitness stuff I'd write up a journal on my current goals.


      So my plan is that I want to get big. I was pretty lean at the start of RTX this year (and compared to last year didn't bloat up too bad on all the vacation food and booze) but I'd really like to be that lean only like 15-20 lbs bigger. Yeah, that's kind of ambitious and might take more than the one year but I'm cool with it. 


      The thing is, er, well let's talk about body types.


      Everybody is different, but overall people fall into one or two of three main types. The first is the ectomorph, the classic "hardgainer" who has trouble gaining size of any sort, be it muscle or fat. A lot of runners and swimmers fall into this. 


      The second is an endomorph. A lot of football players fall into this one, they tend to gain size very easily but not necessarily muscle size, are typically pear-shaped and then when cutting down the fat can be a bit stubborn making it hard to change their body composition. 


      The third is the mesomorph, which is also the rarest (1 in 200 from last I heard). Easy muscle gain, easy fat loss. The lucky ones - most bodybuilders or aesthetic athletes fall into this category. Not to say they can't get obese or don't need to work out, they're just the most aesthetically lucky when they do work out and eat right.


      Very rarely is anyone fully, 100% one or the other, most people are a combination of two although with one or the other dominant. So based on my own research on myself and how my body works, I'm mostly Endo with a teensy Meso splash - thick, powerful legs, easy fat gain, but I also have easy muscle gain and relatively fast fat loss. It's still hard to change my composition but not as hard as pure Endo (which is still possible, just a pain in the ass).


      So my plan overall is to be very controlled with things. Summer's coming to an end so a little extra bodyfat isn't that terrible, but it will be when next Spring comes and I start trying to shred down for RTX again. So I'll be in a very careful caloric surplus and being very controlled with my macronutrient totals to try and gain as much muscle with as little fat as possible. 


      To be fair, I more-or-less started this last week so I don't have my exact starting total but I'll take my weight and body comp at work tomorrow to get myself started. I'd say my overall goal will be a 10% bodyfat total (same as RTX) but instead of being 165 lbs I'd love to be 185 or more at that total. 


      Like I said, ambitious.


      But a quick question, I'm not sure what I want to call this yet. Does it already count as fit4RTX? I'm working towards an RTX goal but not only is it a ways away but the raw size is also a general goal. Meh, I'll figure it out!

    • New Snake Same Pattern

      3 months ago

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      Sometimes I wonder if the same Joe that arrives at an RTX will ever be the same one to leave.

      For now, I can hope not.

      This yearly cycle of new men has always been for the good

      The Austin sun burned my old self away

      Now my skin sheds

      Like a snake

      "The pattern is the same

      but the serpent is new"

      Once upon a time

      A youth naive and wide-eyed

      Arrived in the heart of the Southwest

      Unbeknownst carrying a divine spark 

      Shackled and bound to the will of another

      He returned with a mindful of adventure and a homesickness in his heart

      One year later

      Wounded by betrayal

      The divine spark was smothered among the ashes of its chains

      Cold, aloof and sad

      Barely alive inside

      A revitalized man returned

      Then the homesick man 

      Arrived and wandered

      Until his home was secured

      The reluctant heart came next,

      He knew he would soon leave his home behind

      Far too soon, too soon

      Last the one who worked

      Hands to bone, soul to powder

      Nothing left to give, he drank 

      Until friends dragged him from the pit

      Dug by the first man. 

      Divine spark awakened and unchained

      By true friends new and old

      The new man sheds his skin

      Physical, mental, emotional

      The same pattern

      But a new snake

      Eager to meet his successor

      Inheritor to the best

      Of all the people I have been

    • RTX Transformation

      3 months ago

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      RTX is always transformative for me. I mentioned it to a few people but I don't mark my change of year on January 1st, I mark my change of year from one RTX to the next. And each time I go I feel like I come back as a slightly different person. It probably is because of the realtalks that I have with my RT family that get bottled up to a degree when I'm only in Boston, or at least that I have no reason to think about, address and change.


      So one thing I learned about myself is that I need to be more careful with alcohol. I touched on that in my main recap post, but I know that even when I'm "nice" which is most of the time I can be obnoxious and loud. I also get very huggy and I understand that in a room full of internet people being huggy can make people uncomfortable and I'm not a fan of doing that. Plus I make bad decisions that lead to mysterious cuts and gashes - I don't think I was in any fights or anything but what do I know, honestly? On the rare occasions up in Boston that I still drink it's typically at metal and hardcore shows, where people are typically a bit more open and extroverted. So I'm thinking my drinking at next RTX is going to be limited or even nonexistent. After all, if I can enjoy a Vanna show sober after being to them drunk since I first started going then I can definitely enjoy a sober RTX after going to a bunch of them drunk. 


      Another thing I learned is I need to address my spiritual confusion. Since November my previously somewhat strong belief in a more-or-less Catholic theology has been fractured and possibly shattered. It's not that I'm not spiritual, but it's become obvious that a lot of my current mental blocks are because there's a large part of my mind that I'm not sure what to do with. There's no easy solution to this one, to be honest. There's no either-ors, no binary yes/no success vs. fail condition here. I just need to address whether I am religious or spiritual after something as calamitous as Brexit and Trump both becoming a nightmarish reality and if so, in what way? My drunk self apparently has some opinions on the matter but my sober self if the one in charge now.


      Speaking in the vein of spirituality and religion RTX and my new and old friends helped me become more comfortable with the circumstances that led to me leaving the martial arts temple where I used to live. I now will talk about it out loud even though I don't tend to write it out on the internet just to keep the record from sticking around. But now that I've looked back and faced it head-on with the help of my RTX family I've actually been able to better harness the abilities that my old teacher saw in me and made those circumstances that caused me to choose to leave arise in the first place. So all of a sudden my mental and physical balance are significantly improved as well as my control over my emotional state, and my physical capabilities have skyrocketed to the point where my EKG monitor had to recalculate my maximum limits.


      So these are some of the bigger talking points I have with myself now, thanks to RTX. I'm excited to see who and what I become before next time, and see what happens when we reconvene next summer.


      Either way, I love my RTX family and I'm already counting down the days until I can see everyone again!

    • RTX Austin 2017 - Thoughts and Realtalk

      3 months ago

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      It's been three days and I still don't even know where to begin.


      There were definitely a lot of emotions and compromised mental states that make the entire weekend a confusing blur. Aside from being in the city I think of as "home," I was also surrounded by a community I think of as my family. 


      But then, but then, but then.


      I had an amazing time. Essentially it was a massive, five-day party if I include the booze cruise and the Wednesday night jenga (and I do). The thing is, all that continuous partying took a toll on me, both mentally and physically. It was, essentially, a frequent thing that I would get absolutely drunk and be out until 4 until the neighbors at my airBnB requested with varying levels of politeness that we please get out of the fucking pool, it's 4AM you donuts. And it was probably, on some level, good for me to cut loose like that. I've been under a lot of pressure and I had to release it somehow. 


      That said, I did say and do things I wouldn't have otherwise done. Not necessarily bad things, but still, things. I know I can be a huggy, annoying bastard when I'm drunk and I was definitely that at points. I can also be a rude loudmouth, and while people assured me I was nice I do worry. I also know there are swathes here and there that I don't completely remember, and that does upset me. What did I say? Did I make promises I can't keep? Where did I get this big gash on my leg?


      Also, let's face it guys, I'm not quite old yet but I'm not the youngest guy around. My body can't take five straight days of drunkness like it used to, and my brain can't recover from the altered state as fast as before, making me a whirlwind of conflicting emotions. Especially when you consider that, outside of RTX, I almost never drink at all anymore. So I have some thoughts about my next RTX and what I plan on doing, but alcohol's involvement will have to be extremely reduced. 


      I also wish I had been able to see more people. There are definitely some that I just wasn't able to connect with in time or as much as I would have liked. Not the end of the world, but something to think about from last time.


      But I don't want to bog this down in too much introspection, it makes what was a legitimately awesome vacation sound like a drag when it wasn't, it was a brilliant experience even if it may wind up being painfully transformative. As always I'm leaving RTX with a handful of new friends along with the old ones. And not only that these are friends I can talk with about heavy shit. It does seem that, alcohol or no, I have a tendency to talk about deeper subjects like relationships, insecurities, religion and all that fun stuff with my RT family. Maybe it's because I don't see them all the time, but that is a pretty common thing. Hell, some of those conversations with a friend I made during this weekend may have revolutionized the way I view myself and my interactions with other people as regards dating and relationships. 


      So that was pretty legit. I can even toss out a few highlights:


      The Sanshee team is dope af. Happy that one of my roommates introduced me to them, and it's in part because of them I got my RTX tattoo. Super appreciative when they let me borrow some elastics since I lost mine.


      Oh right, I got an RTX tattoo. It was the Geoff star. I may want to get it colored in back in Boston and get one line trued up (not sure if that was on them or on me, I was shit with aftercare this time around) but I want to get one every time I come down for RTX from now on!


      SideQuest was awesome. Yes, I was too drunk by the end of all of their events but a lot of the best realtalk I had was there. 


      The booze cruise was awesome as always, since it is usually first contact with a lot of my friends for the weekend!


      A guy dressed as a full Jack Sparrow told me the rum shot I did as soon as I woke up Sunday was the "breakfast of captains" in character. That was fun.


      Bruce told me to stop throwing out 90s words like dope.


      Once again, all the new friends I have! People who I already can't wait to see again. And that's the most wonderful thing about RTX.


      Either way, I love all y'all, I love this community and I'm already counting down the days to the next RTX, where I'll see you all again in a much more sober state. It'll be a different Joe next time, but hopefully with all my good traits retained. See y'all next year!



  • About Me

    Am I a writer? A manager? A coach? I guess now I'm just me.


    Huge fantasy nerd. It's what I love to read and what I love to write, but as you can see above historical and sci-fi are also favorites even though I've written sci-fi only rarely and my only attempt at historical fiction was the worst book (thankfully unpublished) I'd ever written.


    I prefer to know people before friending them, either in person or through interacting meaningfully on the site, FYI.

  • Comments (41)

    • Shoban FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nabohs

      1 year ago

      Dude! You became featured user! Happy FU day man!

    • Austin0434

      1 year ago

      I know this random but it looks like you just came of three movies either and early Bond movie, The Godfather series, or a Dianel Daylewis film. In others you have a badass profile picture and I would be honored to have you as friend.

    • Cinomari FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Keeper of N00bs

      1 year ago

      Elegant writing! See you at RTX?

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        1 year ago

        Thank you! I'll be there

    • DiMono FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold It's Back Baby!

      2 years ago

      Ursula K Le Guin on where ideas come from and about the writing process. Figured you'd find this as interesting as I did.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        2 years ago

        Definitely interesting! A lot of it is validating, especially the bits emphasizing the importance of hard work over finding some "secret" that transforms you into a writer.

    • StryfeRyder FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      3 years ago

      Awesome meeting you at PAX, did you manage to get into the RT line at all?

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        3 years ago

        Nah, but that's fine. I'd met them all before and got to hang out with other awesome people anyhow. Good meeting you too!

    • RAGEgirl FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold r00kie

      4 years ago

      Also: I just noticed that I'm in your profile pic. That's pretty awesome. =P

    • RAGEgirl FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold r00kie

      4 years ago

      Definitely makes sense. Definitely annoying when writers do that.

      It's so weird to me that they keep creating these characters and/or writing them up in that way, when I feel like readers have voiced enough of a distaste for that kind of character/writing. It's almost like they don't realize that not everything has to be super-amazingly-impressive for us to like them. I like ice cream, but it doesn't have to blow my mind for me to enjoy eating it.

    • Nero FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Nero Maxim

      4 years ago

      Hey @Tropes @halo_dudette and @Jteeth

      We got like a week to go, and I'm just wondering if it's a good idea to maybe exchange cell phone numbers so people can coordinate upon arrival and stuff?

      But other than that, it might be good to just go over everyone's arrival plans and stuff like that.

      I personally will be arriving in Toronto (pending no delays on the train) on Train 57 at Union Station downtown at 3:35pm on Thursday the 6th. I'm leaving on Monday the 10th at 5:35pm. When I get there I'm just gonna walk to the hotel, it's maybe a 20 minute walk so I should be at the hotel for 4pm

      • Jteeth FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Mandalf, his brother

        4 years ago

        I'll be coming in on the Thursday at 5ish. Then once I check in at the hotel I'll be going to see fast 6!

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        4 years ago

        I'll likely be there later than that. I'm taking a bus to Dundas Station. Last year we were delayed at customs and so arrived at 10, but the scheduled arrival is 8PM. I can see the hotel from Dundas, it's no more than a five-minute walk.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      4 years ago

      That's great, thank you!! Yes I think I will be around on Friday, but I really dont know for sure yet.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Hey man!! Thanks!! Yeah, it's cool to find new ways to use the characters themes. Try to tie it in...without wearing it out....you know?

      • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

        5 years ago

        Very kind of to say that---thanks so much. It's a really fun riff to play on gtr so I dont even think I thought about it at all, just did it. smiley13.gif

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        well I think you're doing just that. I mean, Plagam Extremam Infligere was, I thought, a single-scene wonder but by swapping out the drum for guitar along with the other changes you've changed it up enough to call back that chill while still having it be fresh.

    • THAYT FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Joker SR2

      5 years ago

      Met you at RvBTO!!!

    • Jteeth FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold Mandalf, his brother

      5 years ago

      Uhhhhh A LITERARY DEVICE!

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        Good, you remembered!

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Thats awesome, I'm so glad that people seemed to like that. The first version of the song is so aggressive I was worried that people would take it as...ummm, i dunno....ridiculous, maybe. If that makes sense. Thanks man, I truly appreciate the kind word!

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      5 years ago

      Thanks for being there with us!!!! It was a lot of fun, great to see you as always.

    • Oaktownpull

      5 years ago

      Hey man, saw your post from PAX, and you're doing RvBTO, but are you also hitting up RTX this year?

      • Oaktownpull

        5 years ago

        Right on. Hopefully the planets will align and RTX will happen.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        I wish! I only had the money for one, and since this is going to be the last RvBTO I'm going to do that this year and then RTX 2013 instead.

        Or, well, that's what's probably going to happen. There is a sequence of increasingly unlikely events that, if they all happened just so, would allow me to do both. I'm not holding my breath though :(

    • magicookie

      5 years ago

      TV Tropes ruined my life. smiley1.gif

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        Yeah, someone once said that seeing the strings might make it worse, but instead I read books that I already liked and say "AAAH! I see what you did there!"

      • magicookie

        5 years ago

        Lycantropes, i.e. tropes about werewolves!

        TV Tropes has done both, just like Reddit... For some reason, understanding WHY something is funny makes it way funnier. It also makes me much better at perceiving writing mechanics.

      • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

        5 years ago

        Ruined or enriched?

        Funny thing, I actually didn't get this name based on my uncanny awareness of tropes. I got it because a British man in a chatroom couldn't spell "lycanthropy."

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      hahahahaaaa----yeaaaaah

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Thanks thanks thanks man!!! Yeah I cant wait to be able to TAKE a road trip...or even a day trip sounds incredible right now.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      In reply to Tropes, #7:

      Thank YOU!!! I feel very lucky to make music for RvB and you guys. Hope you like the new stuff....!!

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    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      The soundtrack is going to come out piecemeal on iTunes, and those versions will be the OST versions. So, they will be very much like what you hear in the episodes. For the CD, I will probably do something similar to the Revelation CD, where I will make extended fancier versions .

    • elpez124

      6 years ago

      If you have Morrowind for the PC and would be interested in participating in an experiment, please email Game-study@hotmail.com.

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      6 years ago

      Cuz you're the best. The BEST. EVER!!!!!!


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    • Orion255

      7 years ago

      Hey mate, going to PAX East again this year?

    • williams FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      7 years ago

      Hey!

      I really really want to thank you for such kind words. Actually eleventy billion aren't saying it, it's just been a nice handful of people who have noticed.

      It's very much appreciated, I am so very glad that you like it. I can't wait for you to have the whole CD (soon, soon!!).

      Thanks again and best wishes,
      Jeff

    • Fuck_Berries

      7 years ago

      Hahaha, lol. It's probably one of my favorite Tucker lines.

    • TheJas

      7 years ago

      I don't know. Try sending me a request and maybe it'll get fixed?

    • Tropes FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold I Am What I Am

      8 years ago

      Yeah, see, I didn't actually do that. I joined the group and everyone (all two of them) vanished. So now I'm "in charge."

    • BigGuns117 FIRST Member Star(s) Indication of membership status - One star is a FIRST member, two stars is Double Gold

      8 years ago

      yo the griff fan club image needs to be cropped better.

  • Questions answered by Tropes

    Be able to dedicate a lot of time! I'm actually looking for someone to take over the RTNE group because my work schedule has expanded significantly and I think the community deserves someone who can give it the time. So if you don't think you can commit and commit HARD then I'd say to wait until you can.


    Also, be prepared to start slow. The first few events may be only one or two people, and sometimes no one may show up at all. That's okay, don't get discouraged! Things pick up eventually, but only after a lot of time and energy has been poured in.


    Best of luck! :)