after the amazing amount of personal success that came with me in 2014, 2015 was the hardest year of my life to date. i experienced my first layoff, a harsh reality of the industry. i went through the first financial strain of my adult life, and i had more of personal and familiar tragedies in these last 365 days than in the past few years. i was in toxic friendships, taken advantage of, had too many health issues, and even had a scorpion infestation in my house!
needless to say, i'm ready to put 2015 to bed.
that said, i survived-- struggling, anxious and full of insecurity, but i kept my head up. and out of all the negative events, there were also a good number of positives.
i adopted a cat, who at times was my only companion through hardships. i got a job i hated, then a job i loved, then a job i didn't feel like i was a good fit for... to finally go back to the job i loved with more stability. i was able to move my father out here, and he is finally getting the medical treatment he needs and deserves. i've been able to become a great help to my parents, putting a small dent in the debt to life i owe them. i met great friends, attended breathtaking shows, traveled to see old acquaintances, and grew my brand as an artist. i met a great, patient, caring guy who sometimes puts up with my awful jokes but, most of all, keeps me grounded.
i guess what i mean to say is... sometimes it might seem like we are surrounded by bad things happening to us, but good things always come out of hardships. in 2016, i wish to become a more positive person-- concentrating less of what we don't have, what we have happen to us, and things beyond our control. instead, i'd like to concentrate on the things i can do, the things i'm lucky to have, and be grateful for all of it.
i urge you all to do the same.
we are always growing. we should never take any experience, or lack thereof, for granted. do not stretch yourself too thin. do not sweat the small stuff, or let the online experience add stress to your life; take care of yourself-- mentally and physically. set goals, and work towards them. and if (or when) things don't work out, keep going.
never stop trying to become better.
i love you all very much.
have a great 2016.